You...me..

There are feelings i cannot describe even if i wanted.

Sometimes my dreams turn for the worst and are haunted. 

I have a past of dark tales and secrets unknown.

Im afraid of the ending the comes once youre shown.

Im afraid to let you in past the door,  but when our lips touch, my heart hits the floor. 

Theres no hiding the feelings i have, its just impossible, trust me ive tried.

Ill tell you the truth, I dont have to lie..

I've lied and ive cheated, with mad regret it wont be repeated.

Stubborn,childish,flirty and loud.

Is that something youd call yours and be proud?

the feelings i have run deeper than the sea.

I look in your eyes and it feels like you know me.

Your eyes are so whimsical,divine and sincere.

A Smile that makes me nervous,giddy and flushed.

Your say my name and is sounds so different. 

Self control is weary and crushed by temptation, the risks are so high but then again so am I. 

One step past the darkness is the light that we seek, but its not as easy as crossing the street. 

There are just a few snags in our dreaming and planning.

Just waiting for changes, discussion and endings.

Time is a virtue and patience a necessity.

But i wont lie, my heart doesnt tell time.

I have no patience.

Please dont tell me you love me.

Dont you see?

Telling me will surely destroy me inside.

The words we exchange change my perspective

They cheer me up, and show how receptive.

Your words,your touch it drives me insane.

Ill never be able to fully explain

I dont want to hide how i feel for you, even though i know im the one who said it should be discrete. I want to be with you, i want to be yours, and you to be mine. I want to tell everyone, including you...

Valentines Day

Well, today is Valentines Day.

To some it's Thursday.

To others its a day of love and showing appreciation to your significant other, girlfriend, wife, fiancee, etc.

I know there are many people who will say:
Well I think its stupid, if you really love someone you should show how much you love them and appreciate them every day of the year.

Yes, this is true. But, of the rest of the year, how often do you actually see people doing it? Many are in fact showing their person every day of the year. It;s not until Valentines Day that its made public. You see women wearing the jewelry their person got them, or you see them out to eat at her favorite restaurant, or you see couples acting more in love.

Its no that the appreciation or the love isn't there, its just been hiding. Valentines Day is the one accepted day where every couple is allowed to be a "Throw Up Couple" without people getting offended or upset.

The reference "Throw Up Couple" is one I have used since I started High School. I saw a couple at the grocery store buying hot cocoa. Now the conversation literally went like this:

Guy: Baby, go ahead and get the one with marshmallows I know you love marshmallows.
Girl: But Baby I know you don't like marshmallows, get the one without them.
Guy: But Baby you like the one with marshmallows
Girl: I know but you don't like the one with marshmallows

Now as you can imagine they were talking in there little kid voices(the voices you use to talk to kids under the age of 6). It continued on for another 20 minutes before they decided to get both. Just hearing them talk made me want to throw up, hence the term.

Now back to Valentines Day.

"I want to wish you a Happy Valentines Day
but unless this card is going to get you
naked I have to admit my hearts not really in it"

To those of you who are single on this Valentines Day, don't be so cynical. You turn into the Scrooge, Grinch etc of Valentines Day. There are plenty of other people who are single as well,who don't celebrate even though they are in a relationship, or just don't care. Take the opportunity to talk to people. Men, then there are plenty or women who are single today. Women, there are plenty of single men out there today.

Then there are the people who think Valentines Day is a guaranteed night of getting to do the horizontal tango. Come on man really? I say man because it's usually the men who can't find a dance partner, women don't have as much trouble.

Going out and finding some random woman or a random man to "dance" with is not smart. But it you want to go out and ruin a romance filled day with getting something you can't wash off, go ahead, but remember that it's your own fault!

Also be a grown up and let your next dance partner know! Don't give them something they can't wash off.


If for you today is just Thursday, then still be positive. Friday is tomorrow and you're one day closer to the weekend.

If you are celebrating today, then Happy Valentines Day to you and your person. I hope you both enjoy it, and that its memorable.