You...me..

There are feelings i cannot describe even if i wanted.

Sometimes my dreams turn for the worst and are haunted. 

I have a past of dark tales and secrets unknown.

Im afraid of the ending the comes once youre shown.

Im afraid to let you in past the door,  but when our lips touch, my heart hits the floor. 

Theres no hiding the feelings i have, its just impossible, trust me ive tried.

Ill tell you the truth, I dont have to lie..

I've lied and ive cheated, with mad regret it wont be repeated.

Stubborn,childish,flirty and loud.

Is that something youd call yours and be proud?

the feelings i have run deeper than the sea.

I look in your eyes and it feels like you know me.

Your eyes are so whimsical,divine and sincere.

A Smile that makes me nervous,giddy and flushed.

Your say my name and is sounds so different. 

Self control is weary and crushed by temptation, the risks are so high but then again so am I. 

One step past the darkness is the light that we seek, but its not as easy as crossing the street. 

There are just a few snags in our dreaming and planning.

Just waiting for changes, discussion and endings.

Time is a virtue and patience a necessity.

But i wont lie, my heart doesnt tell time.

I have no patience.

Please dont tell me you love me.

Dont you see?

Telling me will surely destroy me inside.

The words we exchange change my perspective

They cheer me up, and show how receptive.

Your words,your touch it drives me insane.

Ill never be able to fully explain

I dont want to hide how i feel for you, even though i know im the one who said it should be discrete. I want to be with you, i want to be yours, and you to be mine. I want to tell everyone, including you...

Happy New Year

Well, its been a another year. 2012 is almost gone but the memories will last a lifetime.
The memories we created this past year, whether good or bad are what we should use for this next year. Utilize the good memories to create better ones,and  the bad memories to avoid creating more like them. Some memories, and events that took place are unpreventable and will happen whether ot not you want them to.

If you lost a loved one in 2012, do not dwell on the hurt, the pain or the sadness. Rejoice. Your loved one is free. Free of pain and suffering. They ARE in a better place now. It's difficult to understand let alone accept, but we have to see the bigger picture. They are needed elsewhere. Don't think of their passing as a punishment from God. I see losing a loved one as a test from God. He tests us all in mysterious ways, whether it's your strength, or your ability to comfort those who need it most. Do not dwell, rejoice. Your loved one wouldn't want to see you hurting inside.

If you brought a new life into the world in 2012, this is just the beginning. There are many things coming your way in 2013. The many milestones to look forward to. Remember to kiss and love on your bundle of joy every chance that you get. Even if they don't understand, talk to them, tell them how much they mean to you, how they are a blessing to you, and how much you love them.

If you ended a relationship in 2012 (i mean long term not "oh well we dated for a week"), don't let that get you down. There are many many more people out there. I'm not going with the "there's more fish in the sea blah blah". It's BS!The way i see it you are in control of your standards, you cant chose to say "no, he/she isn't good enough" or "I deserve better". Take a stand, hold your ground. I remember what my Uncle Raymond (God rest his soul) and my Uncle JR told me and i'm passing the same advice onto you "Don't ever settle for less than what you feel you deserve".

If you changed your relationship status to "In a Relationship" (Again, talking long term), good for you. Enjoy that person, enjoy the little things, Whether that means an inside joke, a silly face, or even a manor-ism or a certain word they say. Don't rush into the I Love You's. Just take each day as it comes and remember there is a reason you are with this person. "If you press me to say why I love him, I can say no more than Because he was he, and I was I"

If you were alone in 2012 and will be alone in 2013, good for you. Its nothing to be ashamed of, or to feel down about. You are content with yourself and see you don't need anyone to complete you or anyone to take care of you but you. It shows your independence and you ability to be happy by yourself. If you are unhappy alone then be social. It doesn't mean you have to go out and find someone to be with, it just means you might need to get together with friends more often, or go out to social places to meet new people. Maybe you could travel around. Travel your state, your country or other countries, but don't ever feel ashamed or down about being by yourself.

2012 was just another year of ups and downs. Friendships made and friendships lost. To put it in words i'm going to borrow from my god sister Jaime. She Posted:

New years eve, a day to stop and reflect on the year that has gone by. A day to remember the good times and the bad, to remember the people who never left your side when things got rough. To remember are promises made and broken. To forgive and forget the people that hurt you. To be thankful that you made it another year. But most importantly to be excited that your getting a fresh start, another chance to get things right. Cause that's what new years is all about getting another chance to do more, to be more, and to love more. 

It's nothing short of the truth. Keep your head up and prepare for the New Year. Don't hold onto past grudges, don't hold onto hatred. Let it all go. In 2013 you will face many more challenges and surprises in your life that holding onto the past will just weigh you down.

I hope everyone, no matter where you are , has an amazing New Years Eve, and an even better New Year. :D

Oh, and on another note, everyone who will be drinking on New Years Eve, Please DON'T DRINK & DRIVE!!   ------ >>>