5yr old terrorist

A 5 year old girl was suspended from kindergarten for telling a classmate she was going to shoot her with a toy gun. The Mount Carmel Area Elementary School suspended the girl for 10 days for making a "terroristic threat". the punishment was later reduced to 2 days suspension. The girls family has hired a lawyer and is fighting the suspension. The article then asks, in wake of the Sandy Hook shooting is the schools reaction appropriate or does the suspension  go to far?

The "gun" this little girl was "threatening" with is a plastic Hello Kitty gun that shoots bubbles. Thats right Bubbles. In my opinion the suspension is going to far. The girl is 5 years old and most likely doesnt even understand the concept of shooting someone to harm them. Most 5 year olds have trouble understanding death let alone harmful actions. 

At that age kids are still learning about all of that. They are learning about how their actions and feelings affect other people. Learning how to use their words and be kind with their words. 

I highly doubt the student she "threatened" was all broken up about it, crying to a teacher that this little girl threatened her with a gun, or was going to shoot her. In elementary school kids play game where they shoot each other all the time, no harm no foul. No one actually gets shot, or hurt or killed.

The school over reacted and blow things out of proportion. I could see them calling her parents and voicing their concerns in light of the Sandy Hook shooting and how her behavior or words were inappropriate. Sitting the girl down and talking to her about it. Not suspending her.

I threatened a girl in school once. I was in Junior High in California. I didn't even directly threaten this girl. I was in the locker room and stated that i wanted to shoot her (i didn't even say a name) in the face for every one of her freckles.(she had a lot of freckles). One of my friends who happened to be a mutual friend over heard me and asked who. I told her who. The next day i was called into the vice principles office and was suspended for a day,given 2 weeks detention,and i had to write the girl an apology. The girl who over heard me went home and told her mother what i said and she called the girls mother who then called the school and threw a fit. 

Thats at the age of 13 that i was suspended a day and given detention, and the written apology. This little girl is 5 and she was suspended longer than i was. 

Is this really what the world is coming to? that we are going to push kids who play shooting games? 

What next? Are we going to stop manufacturing gun toys? water guns? super soakers? paint ball guns? bubble guns? suction cup dart guns?

We all just need to calm down with the gun thing. The girl was 5. Give her a break.

National Anthem Gone Wrong

Our national anthem, its not a pop single, its not an American Idol/X Factor or any other shows audition. Its our National Anthem.

Why is it that 90% of the people who are famous or have a music career feel the need to make the anthem their own. Add a little flair and what not.

ITS NOT YOUR SONG! 

You're not supposed to add a little of your ow flair to it. Your not supposed t stretch out the notes and do a bobble of notes, or slide up and down the notes or add your little bit of character to it which honestly just sounds like whining.

There are exceptions  there is a way to add your own flair without taking away the whole song, there's a way to add a sprinkle of your flair to the anthem without it sounding like your auditioning, or recording your new single.

When someone sings the National Anthem(especially when its televised), it should be sung with passion and feeling but not take so far off the path that everyone is thinking "Oh my god, he/she murdered/butchered it". Our veterans shouldn't cringe hearing the anthem. 

My dad is a veteran, my family is a military family. We have a certain expectation of how our National Anthem should be done.

I'm sorry and the presidential inauguration  the only reason Beyonce sang was because she is black. Our president is black. Do you see the pattern?

If you sing the National Anthem correctly it causes chills, goosebumps, and a sudden rush of pride in your country. When its done right i can feel my heart in my chest, i get chills down my spine i get covered in goosebumps and i want to drape myself in an american flag running through the streets screaming at the top of my lungs that I'm proud to be an American.

In my opinion some of the best National Anthems ever done include:

May not be out anthem but its a national anthem done RIGHT!!!

Am I Getting Old??

While out on date night last night i have come to the conclusion that i am getting old. Maybe not old and decrepit, but older than i once was. I came to this conclusion while at the movies. Seeing the difference in how i used to be over how i am now. I'm not the only one who came to this conclusion, only for guys its not a "getting older" thing its just that they have changed over the years. I'll explain.

Once we arrived at the theatre we got out tickets and our popcorn and drinks and went into our designated theatre after hearing the speech about how if he leave the theatre without our tickets we wont be aloud back in etc etc blah blah. We didn't get there late, we got there early. I always add time to the "start time" so it ends up later than advertised. I account the time for previews and stuff(which i must say, the previews time sure has shortened). We like to sit in the top row off to the left side(while facing the screen left side), and in the corner. We arrived and took our seats, not knowing we were going to see a pre-show within the audience before the movie started.

As we watched the theatre gradually fill up we saw a few different things. There were the uptight Hispanic girls in from of us, the over cocky Hispanic guys in front of them, the soccer team and their coaches, the obviously loud and easily annoyed black lady(didn't see her but heard her), and lastly the happy to fussy baby.

When we sat down there was this group of Hispanic guys, Id say they were in High School but im not sure which grade. Maybe sophmore or junior. They sat with their feet up on the chairs in front of them, throwing popcorn amongst themselves until a group of girls walks in. (those girls sat a few rows down from those guys on the opposite side of the theatre)

The group of Hispanic girls that came in Sat in the row directly in front of us. Now I wont lie, I am a very jealous girlfriend. I'll admit it I am. I didn't realize how much until this group of girls each took a turn turning around and looking at us(mostly at Yayo) with their "Oh i didn't know anyone was behind us" look. Then as their looks had begun to dissolve the girl sitting directly in front of me turns around and either gave me a mean ass bitch look or that was just how her face is on a regular basis. This group also felt the need to be photographers. Oh yes at the movies, they became photographers. Whether it was with their phone, or their friends phone, and yes folks even a camera or two they took about 20 pictures on each device. Now for every picture they took that blinded me half way i started to think about when Laina and i would go to the movies all the time. We would take pictures a little above our heads, especially if there was someone cute sitting behind us(Yes i'm jealous enough to think that's what was happening). They laughed and talked about the group of Hispanic guys sitting a row in front of them. They guys must have been listening because in unison as id they rehearsed they all jumped down a row of seats, and again in unison the girls all put their feet up on the chairs in front of them. Then we heard the conversation started by one girl asking her friend what time she had to be home. She said 9, and the movie started at 7:30 and was an hour and 40 minutes long. Good luck on meeting that curfew. Reminded me of when i was younger.

As the theatre began to get full a bigger group of about 20 girls all show up. They were very loud as they entered the theatre, talking about how they wanted to sit along the top row. They ended up about half way up and in the middle. After they scrambled to find their seats and decide who was sitting by who they began conversations amongst the groups of other people their age. About 5 minutes later their coaches arrive. An average looking female soccer coach, blonde in comfy looking wind pants and a soccer hoodie. The male coach followed her in, an average height white guy with a mister clean hair style. He looked like ex military but i could be wrong. She seemed as though she would rather be anywhere but there and he was having fun with it and cracked a few jokes here and there that made who ever heard it laugh.

The annoyed black girl didn't have any ones attention until the movie was starting and the audience was still in a medium roar of conversation and giggles. Once the movie started you began to hear the different ways to tell a group of people to hush up or be quiet. Don't start with the racial crap. Everyone know the loud black chick at the movies when you hear her. She was very persistent throughout the entire movie on shhh-ing people and making it known she wanted them quiet.

Throughout this movie, a great movie i'd say, the parts that scared people caused massive screams, and then laughter. I'm not sure why they laugh. Are they laughing at themselves for being scared enough to scream? Either way once the laughing began the loud black lady right on cue began shh-ing people and the be quiets began. All fine and dandy.

Towards the end of the movie, the last 20 minutes or so, you heard a baby. A BABY! Now my first question is, who in their right mind brings a baby to a movie like that? First we heard the coos and baby noises. Not to loud or continuous just a noise here and there. But once the baby started getting fussy, there was a problem. I don't like having kids get fussy and half crying or full on cry while im at the movies. I was a little aggitated when the parents of this fussy baby didn't leave, they waited out the last 30 min. Don't stay in a theatre if you baby is fussing and Don't bring your baby to a movie like that.

Being at that movie and seeing the high school girls and the high school guys, the young kids there with chaperone and the kids there that were not going to meet their curfews, made me think about how long ago i was in their place. I realized how annoying i was at that age, and how dumb i feel knowing i was like that once. But then i start to think about ten years from now, it will be ever weirder. Am i getting old? things have changed so much and some things haven't changed at all. Maybe I am getting old, but i don't feel old. Maybe its just the changes that make me feel that way.

Seriously Annoying

This is what i see as i scroll through my newsfeed on Facebook, and I'm annoyed to no extent. Am i supposed to be all bothered and concerned about that one American? Well, I don't care. I'm not bothered and I'm not surprised.

As an American i have to say that our leaders are fucking ignorant. Yes, i said it. I don't care about the dead American and I think our leaders are fuckin ignorant.

Over the last however many years we have heard and seen on the news all these different stories of Americans being killed, taken hostage, imprisoned and worse in all kinds of foreign countries. What no one ever makes clear, or states is that those countries HATE US.

They dont care is you are black, white, brown or purple with stripes. If you are an American then they hate you. Why do you think there are so many stories about it? They want us dead.

Every country we have been to in the last 10 years hates us. All the countries we are "helping", hate us. They don't want our help, if they did would they have attacked the embassy? Would they be killing or imprisoning tourists?

We,as a country need to stop focusing on "helping" these other countries that obviously don't want our help, and focus on helping ourselves!

Think about every problem our country is having. The economy,the 2nd amendment crap thats going on, the possible re-election of Obama, Obamacare, etc etc. Why are we not fixing our own problems first?

You cannot help those who cannot help themselves!
You cannot help those that do no want your help!

Ill step off my soap box now.

Sunny Beaches

I don't care about the screaming children kicking up sand, trying to bury their younger siblings while their mother screams to be careful. I don't care about the over weight people in their overly loud Hawaiian shirts, or the clothing they attempt t squeeze themselves into that are obviously over 2 sizes too small. I don't care about the young puppy love  couple who can't keep their hands off of each other to the extent tat most people would bet money they might "do it" on the beach in front of God and everybody.

When I go to the beach I don't focus on the people who are on the beach, I can just watch the waves, feel the breeze, listen to the waves crashing into the pier, the splashing from the kids, the laughter of pure happiness.

I have never been to the sunny beaches in Texas.

I have bee told about it, but never been to it.

I was told:
-the water isn't blue, its brown
-you can't surf
-if you go into the water deep enough you will get a ta line from where the water hits

All of these things, less than appealing.

I know, I'm being biased because I'm from California, and I grew up with those sunny beaches but, I don't care. I have never been to the beaches in Texas. I am not emotionally prepared to deal with the lack of amazement.

The beach was never just a beach. The beach has always been a place of tranquility, sanity, and peace.

I miss the beach, i miss feeling like there was nothing else in the world but the wonderful beach, the relaxing breezes and me.

Maybe, the sunny beaches here in Texas won't be that bad....Hopefully...

Bone To Pick

I have a definite bone to pick.  I am what you would call a movie junkie or addict. I love watching movies, talking about movies etc. However i would never want to be in a movie. I can and will admit i have no talent for acting, and I would not meet up to the "Hot Actress" standard.

Then I think, well in today's movie world, you don't even have to have talent to be in movies.

I don't think Megan Fox is a good actress. I think she is famous because she is an average actress who happens to be hot. Now a days i think that's all it takes. As long as the actress or "wannabe" is hot, and catches the eye of many male viewers then it doesn't matter if she is a horrible actress or if the movie is horrible.

Many men will defend that the movie is good, or "she is a great actress". Come on, really? really? The only reason anybody with a penis watched "Bring It On" or "I Love You Beth Cooper" was because of the actresses, not the movie itself or the story line, just the actresses.

I boldly stated above that I don't think Megan Fox is a good actress, and I stand by that. Why was she famous to begin with? She was in transformers, a supportive roll. She became popular because she was the "hot" chick from the movie. In my opinion she doesn't look unique or anything. Average chick.

Today there are many good looking actresses who suck at their jobs. I don't know if i could name 10 actresses under 25 who are gorgeous/hot and talented.

Can you?

I can name a few actresses who i think are gorgeous/hot and talented but none of them are under 25.

Not in specific order:

Kate Beckinsale
Hedy Lamarr
Nicole Kidman
Claudette Colbert
Charlize Theron
Barbara Stanwyck
Marisa Tomei
Maggie Q
Rachel Weisz
Lana Turner
Rachel McAdams
Salma Hayek
Bette Davis


Maybe I'm too critical but I don't think the actresses such as Megan Fox and many others who are hot and untalented deserve the recognition they get, or the fame and fortune they get. Maybe they should put some of that fortune to use, go to some acting classes or something.

Another Shooting&More Gun BS

A month after the Sandy Hook Shooting there have been other shootings around the country that have taken place.The Sandy Hook shooting was ripped apart in This Video, it showed all the inconsistencies and the "coincidence" that went on.

This past Thursday,January 10th, at  Taft Union High School in California there was another shooting. A student entered the school with his brothers shotgun with ammo in his pockets. Its reported he targeted 2 students in particular. Do you want to guess why? Because they bullied him. 

Staff on campus, a teacher and a staffer, were able to talk the student down, and he put the gun down and surrendered. 1 student is in critical condition and was airlifted, and 2 more were injured.

This is a direct quote from The Article About The Shooting:

President Obama has called for the creation of a task force, led by Vice President Joe Biden, to look at ways to prevent gun violence. The vice president is expected to present his findings by next Tuesday.

Again the government is looking at this as gun violence. This isn't gun violence. This is an emotional high school student who was bullied to the point where he wanted to shoot the bullies, not gun violence.  

Have you ever been bullied? Have you ever been bullied so much that you actually thought about shooting the bully? Plenty of us have. In high school everybody made somebodies life a living hell. I know for a fact there are a few people when i was in high school who wanted to shoot me, one to this day still wants to.

I would almost like to bet money that this shot gun having student is going to have some sort of mental illness or was off his meds. That's how things have been going with this tirade of gun violence events occurring everywhere.

Some unstable person off of their meds gets a gun and goes shooting up schools, then Obama steps in and says its gun violence.

Obama pull your head out of your ass, its not gun violence.

Does anyone actually know how long or how hard the process is in California to get a shot gun legally?

I know someone, in California, with an illegal shot gun.

 It doesn't matter how hard the legal process it, or how long it takes. It doesn't matter how many laws you pass or how many obstacles you throw in front of people who are wanting a firearm, there will always be people with illegal firearms.

By making these laws, and difficult processes you are doing nothing but making it easier for the innocent law abiding citizens to get hurt or killed.

How long has Meth or Heroin been illegal?
Yet everyday there are millions of people dying from using. They are checking into rehabs or relapsing.

How about Marijuana?
Been illegal for a long time. Yet how many people are in jail for possession of marijuana?

Has our government just decided to walk around with its eyes closed? what puppet master is controlling this idiotic president we have?

Making something illegal or nearly impossible to get doesn't make it go away, or make the problems they cause go away. It makes them worse. It makes people more secretive to get it.

It didn't work with drugs, what makes anyone think that it will work with guns?

Can You Say Awkward??

OK, so my boyfriend Yayo, the amazing man that he is, had asked about all of these different places to eat, and if i had ever been there. Being a native California girl, and not a girl who had ventured to many different places( I like what I like and I usually stick to it), he has taken me to Cheddars (I'm in love with their Alfredo),Texas Road House(he was shocked I had never been there), and Tequilas(not my cup of tea).

 Yesterday he decided that we were going somewhere new. He took me to Tokyo's. Now, I will admit I have never been a big seafood person, fish, crab, shrimp etc. My seafood range was fish sticks(which im not sure is actually fish), tuna(from a can), and whatever smoked and fried fish my soccer team made once a season out at the fields, but i was open to trying new things. 

I have been developing a liking for shrimp since we went to eat at his mom's house and she made this spicy shrimp with rice.

When we get there, and walk through the doors, I look around,not only to see what it looks like but to locate restrooms as well(that's important). They ask, table or Grill? I was confused but Yayo replied with Grill. I follow him over to our seats at this grill. I thought it was cool because i knew there was going to be fire and stuff going on when the food was made. 

After giving our drink orders this couple comes in and sits across from us. A thinner white guy(yes i said white, its my blog i don't have to be politically correct if i don't want to) whose eyes seems to never focus in one place. Not to mention he came in with his hat on and didn't take it off once he was indoors. Maybe he didn't know better but i was always taught it was disrespectful to leave your hat on when you were indoors, especially at the table eating. This man was accompanied by his "big boned" wife and their baby(maybe 6-8 months old). 

Now, your probably wondering, why would that be awkward? Well, when you have 2 strangers sitting on the other side of a grill who are facing you, and you don't know them? it gets awkward. I didn't even want to look up at all. I didn't want to make eye contact with these people for an array of reasons.

I don;t want to create some jealousy scene, "Why where you looking at her?" from their side of the table. "Oh I saw you looking at him." from my side of the table. I wasn't going to create some clustermuck of ridiculousness. NO WAY! or "Why where you looking at him?" from my side. It just seemed like a problem waiting to erupt. Maybe I was being a little over cautious but I don't think so. I thought it was weird that we were all trying to avoid looking at each other and trying to not make eye contact.

So i sat angled towards Yayo, and talked with him, even at times I'm pretty sure he would have preferred silence. As i got my order of Spider Rolls, and California Rolls I was Excited. I know i like California Rolls, and the Spider Rolls were something new to try. Yayo had me try his Crunch Rolls and his Teriyaki (yes its spelled wrong..i think) steak looking thing.(it wasn't fish, but I'm not sure if it was steak, I kinda spaced when he ordered). 

I have to say everything but the Spider Rolls, was delicious. They were not my thing i guess. Oh and i almost forgot. After getting my rolls and Yayo got his food, i attempted to just bite one of my rolls, not a good idea, as  let it fall back onto my place it landed on the tiny pile of green stuff. Now, I don't know what its called, i just know if you want to clear your sinuses, or have a wish to never feel your face again you don't eat a lot or any of it. I however didn't realize it had landed on it until after i had tried to eat the Spider Roll again. My tongue started to burn, and felt like i have recently eaten pop rocks. NO FUN!!

But all in all, I liked the food, and i liked that Yayo took me for no real reason.<3

hopefully next time we go out, we don't get caught in that kind of awkward situation. :P

Prostitutes Further Education for World Cup

Huffington Post reports, Brazilian prostitues are learning English to prepare for major soccer events. Prostitutes in one of Brazil's biggest cities, Sao Paulo, are beginning to sign up for free English classes ahead of this year's Confederations Cup and the 2014 World Cup.

 Prostitution is legal in Brazil. 

Cida Vieira, president of the Association of Prostitutes in the city of Belo Horizonte, says that its important for the women to learn English, they need to know what turns their clients on and to let their clients know how much they charge. 

The association is currently looking for volunteers to teach these classes. They wont have any problem with that. Vieira has already stated that there are already several volunteer psychologists and doctors helping them. They are now thinking about adding free French and Italian classes as well.

I say more power to them. If they are going to sign up for an 8 month course to learn a different language so they can be better at their jobs, good for them. That is dedication to the job if you ask me. They are furthering their education, and expanding their language abilities. 

In the US it will be a big deal because it prostitutes but who cares? The only reason the story wont be all over the news is because the women are preparing for soccer events. In the US soccer is not a main priority, they'd rather suffocate us with basketball.  I think its great that they are volunteering to learn English. Good for them. I applaud the effort.

Now any English speaking person that decides to go to Brazil for the Confederations Cup or the World cup (or both) wont have to ask a translator or use a translator to get some nookie while they are there. Cross your fingers, French and Italian speakers might get the same pleasure!

Twitter for Dummies

Many people out there either have a Twitter and are on it like white on rice, others may have one but never get on it(usually they just link their Facebook with it).

For those that don't have Twitter, or have it and don't use it. Twitter is just a faster version on Facebook.
 Instead of "Likes" its "Favorites" and instead of "Sharing" its "Retweet".

On Facebook we "Tag" People in our posts, and pictures, well on Twitter you just put "@" in front of their username and it pretty much "tags" them in your tweet or "post".

On Facebook we "add" people to our friends list, which means they will show up in our "news feed" and we can see their profile etc etc. On Twitter its called "following". you can follow your friends, your favorite news channel, or your favorite musician(which if they started making music after the 90's they are not really musicians they are mostly artist or people who have more money than talent). Once you start following them they show up on your home page feed.

On twitter you can also create a "List" which is where you can pick certain people, or news channels and separate them from your regular feed. Its very helpful considering in a ten minute time period there could be 30 new tweets and you end up having to scroll forever to find who you were looking for.

Then of course there are the "Hash Tags" which to anyone who isn't brain dead its a damn number sign. For Twitter purposes it is just a way to categorize your tweet. you can search different hash tags to see what people are saying about that particular thing or subject. I'm writing this on a Wednesday so a "trending" hash tag is "#HappyHumpDay". All trending means is that its popular and that there are a lot of people talking about it.

AS for pictures on Twitter, you don't get to upload a million and two pictures to an album on your profile.. You get your profile picture. If you do upload a picture within your tweet it shows up as a twitter link and is then shown somewhere within your profile.

I hope this helps someone out there. I know plenty of people already know about twitter but i have been asked about some of the things above. Hope it was helpful :)

Shitty

Last night I was in so much pain. My head hurt so bad it felt like someone was trying to mash a softball or 2 through my eye and forehead. My joints felt like they were trying to give up and just shatter as I tried to lay still and finish watching raw. I had shooting pains in my legs,sides,arms and neck. Even after the soever,aspirin and endorphine rush I was still in way too much pain. Then I stayed up later than planned discussing/arguing/talking.(not a big deal I enjoy talking to him before going to sleep). After knowing all that,knowing I was in pain,and didn't feel good,he has the nerve to become obtuse with me this morning.

I understand that I do usualy wake up when he does to make him coffee and smoke a cigarette with him before he goes to work. This morning I wasn't even sure If i was going to be able to get up for my morning trip to the restroom let alone make coffee.

I didn't talk Much this morning. I was struggling to wake up. It felt like an impossible battle to even keep my eyes open let alone talk or make coffee. I understand when people need coffee. It was a household rule growing up to not ask my mother for anything until she had had at least 2cups of coffee. But if its such a necessity don't you think you could have put your big boy or big girl pants on and made it yourself?

All I think to myself is "yess massta I bees a good ninja". Bad reference but I don't care right now. Its almost 7am and I'm laying in bed pissed off, hurt, and half way offended. Not only did I apparently do something wrong I received one of those sarcastic "Thanks for the coffee" before he left. Oh trust me, if I wasn't mad at you when you woke me up, after saying that shit,you can bet your ass that I'm mad now. I'm mad enough that the throbbing in my knee and pain in my hip bone,head,eyes, and ear are not the only things keeping me up this morning. I almost wanted to be a spiteful,hateful girlfriend and go make some coffee now that my ass is laying here mad upset and in pain. All because I didn't wake up when he wanted me up to make him some coffee.

Not even coffee that requires a coffee pot, filters or anything extravagant. That's right folks instant coffee. Heat up some water,add a little milk or creamer and sugar(I add sugar and nesquick chocolate) then add coffee crystals and stir. I make it kinda backwards I guess but he drinks it so it much be at least ordinarily good.

We shall see how this day turns out. Its already off to a shitty start. I hope it doesn't end the same way.

Cover?

I have begun to miss singing all the time. I miss choir, and randomly recording my singing.
Singing is what i was good at, it was a huge passion of mine, and over the years it gradually slipped out of my life. Neither one of my parents take credit for me being musically inclined, and they both have no idea where i got it from.

with that said I think I'm going to do a cover, but I'm not sure which song yet. I dont want to embarrass myself. :/

I guess this is informational, and also a question. What song should i do?

I am both an alto and soprano. Not Christina  or Mariah kinda soprano. i mean honestly how many people are?? :D
I'm super excited about doing this, and about getting back into singing and being the goofy random chick  i was when Alaina and i were together all the time. I hate that we never saved the videos of us singing :/

So if you have any song suggestions let me know.

Not to me, Not from me but it hurts me.

Finding things from someones past can mess with a person. Whether they found it on accident or on purpose, there are things that once they are found they rot your mind like a cancer. It's not to me, ot from me, but from someone i love to someone in their past. Its from awhile ago but the fact that it was there, still somewhere to be found scares me. I think of the past, but i dont have it lingering near me, or anywhere i can go and reminise. Its all the past. I shouldnt care, i should let it affect me. The amount of effort and words that were more begging than conversation bother me. I cant delete it, its not mine t delete. My only question now is, Why do they still have it? Do they go back and look at it? Why am i so worried about it?

MIRAME A LOS OJOS Y DIME Q VES
LAGRIMAS CAIDAS Y UNA BELLA MUJER
Q YA NO TIENE CORAZON POR QUE
YO SE LO ROBE Y LO ROMPI EN DOS
DEJANDO LE UNA HERIDA Q NUNCA SANO Y UN VACIO
LLENA DE DOLOR YA NO CREO EN EL AMOR
BUT LET ME TELL U ABOUT MI LIBRO DE AMOR
ONCE UPON A TIME I MET THIS GIRL THAT CHANGED MY WHOLE LIFE SHE BLIND FOLDED MY EYES WIT HER BEAUTY AND SMILE
SHE HAD FULL CONTROL OF MY MIND BODY AND HEART
COULDNT STAY ALIVE IF SHE WASNT BY MY SIDE
STUCK IN THIS PASSION FULL OF BLAZE
I WAS SO AMAZE THAT I HAD FALLEN SO DEEP IN LOVE
WIT A GURL I HAD BARELY MET
GOT HYPNOTIZE EVERYTIME SHE LOOKED INTO MY EYES
FELT THE ADRENALINE RUSH EVERYTIME OUR LIPS TOUCHED
SHE HAD ME SCREAMING 2 THA TOP OF MY LUNGS
WHEN OUR BODIES TOUCHED AND MADE LOVE
TELLING YOU GORDA TU Y YO ESTAREMOS UNIDOS POR VIDA
Y POR TI DARIA YO TODA MI VIDA Y QUIEN LO DIRIA
THAT THIS LOVE WILL HAVE A TRAGIC END
LIKE R0MEO N JULIET
LOVE AND GUNZ
BOTH CAN SAVE UR LIFE OR GET U KILLED
U REL0AD THA GUN WIT BULLETS
AND THA HEART WIT FULL OF EMOTIONS
AND A BR0KEN HEART IT COULD TEAR U APART
PULL DA TRIGGER AND IT CAN GET U KILL
BUT HERES WERE THA REAL PART OF THA STORY BEGINS
THINGS CHANGED WARM FEELINGS TURNED COLD
AND MY HEART FROZE 4RM AND OVERDOSE
OF DECEPTION AND THA GUY THAT PROMISE YOU THE WORLD
HAD OTHER PLANS I JUST WANTED TO GO
AND LEFT YOU ALL ALONE WITH NO ONE 2 HOLD
A MILLION THINGS WERE RUSHIN THRU MY HEAD
MEMORIES OF A LOVE THAT WAS REALLY MEANT 2 BE AND
MY PAIN WAS GETTIN WORSE AND IT HURT IT MORE AND MORE
IT FELT LIKE A MILLION KNIVES HAVE SHANKED
THRU MY BROKEN HEART AND LEFT ME FULL OF SCARS
MIND SO UNSTABLE I WASNT ABLE 2 STAND
I FELT SO WEAK I COULDNT SPEAK OR BREATH
SO I GRABBED THA GUN AND AIM IT 2 MY HEAD
AND SAID FUCK LOVE I RATHER BE DEAD
BUT BEFORE I COULD PULLED THA TRIGGER
MY WHOLE LIFE STARTED FLASHIN BEFORE MY EYES
AND I STARTED 2 CRY N FELL 2 MY KNEES
THREW LA PISTOLA ON THA FLOOR
AN D ALL THESE EVIL THOUGHTS TOOK CONTROL
OVER MY MIND AND SOUL AND CORAZON LIKE A CURSE AND
I FELT POSSESED NOW IM ON A MISSION TO GET YOU BACK
WHO SAID LOVE COULDNT KILL AND GIVE YOU THE CHILLS
CUZ THERE A THIN LINE BETWEEN LOVE AND HATE
AND I PASSED THA LINE WHEN I BROKE YOU HEART AND LEFT YOU ALL ALONE AND PLAYED WIT YOUR CORAZ0N
NOW IM TRYIN TO ACT ALL TOUGH LIKE I DONT GIVE A FUCK BUT LOVE IS PAIN AND THE TRUTH HURTS TO KNOW THAT I LOST YOU FOR GOOD
BUT THIS IS WHERE THE STORY GETS FULL OF SUSPENCE
AND THA DRAMA NEVER ENDS I GOT THIS PAIN IN MY CHEST I CANT EVEN REST
I COMMITED A CRIME WHEN I PLAYED TRICKS ON YOUR MIND
I KILLED YOU INSIDE WHEN I TOLD YOU ALL DOES LIES
THAT I WAS DOWN TO BE WIT YOU 4R LIFE
AND LEFT YOU ALL EMPTY INSIDE I TOOK ALL YOUR PRIDE
I REMEMBER THE DAY THAT I STOOD FACE 2 FACE WIT THE GIRL OF MY DRAMS
AND THE BITCH THAT TOOK YOU AWAY OH WAT A SHAME
EMOTIONS SO STRONG MY HEART WAS FULL OF HATE IM
TIRED OF PLAYING GAMES
BUT THA TABLES TURN NOW IM THE ONE THE ONE THAT I BE MISSIN AND WANNA BE KISSIN ASKIN YOU 4R MERCY
ME ON MY KNEES BEGGIN 4R A CHANCE AND FORGIVENESS
BUT I BETTA QUIT IT CUZ YOU AINT LISTENIN
2 MY BULLSHIT NO MORE YA NO TENGO CORAZON
TRATE DE BORRAR TU NOMBRE Y MEMORIA PERO FUE IMPOSSIBLE CUZ U LEFT A BRUISE THAT COULD NEVER BE CURED
YA NO QUIERO SABER NADA DE OTRO AMOR ESO SE ACABO
CUZ YOU YOU HAD ME LOCKED UP IN THESE WALLS BEHIND BARS
A PRISONER OF LOVE DOING TIME 4R A CRIME THAT I COMMITED
JANEL I REALLY DO LOVE YOU A AM SORRY FOR WHAT I DID YOU SAID IT YOURSELF IT HAS BEEN 1 YEAR THAT WE BROKE UP AND IM STILL HERE BEGGING AND CRYING FOR THAT LAST CHANCE TE AMO GORDA

Abortion, Sex Ed, Birth Control etc

Abortion seems to be a subject of conversation lately, and honestly if people where more responsible then it wouldn't be an issue. However it's obvious that people are not responsible enough to use a condom or birth control. 

In any case, I agree with the whole "it's her body, her choice".  So i guess that means I'm pro-choice. 

I think abortion is necessary. I think it gives us all something to argue about, something to help us decide on who to elect, on who we agree with or disagree with. I think the people who are so pro-life need to go the inner city, and highly populated cities and visit foster homes and group homes. Go look at all of the children there.  Why not do something to help them? 

So many children who live majority of their lives in the system will develop verbal,mental and social problems. Many will be physically and verbally abused, and neglected, but I don't see people with their signs demanding things for them! I don't see people throwing their bibles at the system or the abusive foster homes!

I know it's a touchy subject, because everyone and their mother knows someone who has had an abortion or who decided against having one or whatever. I get it, everyone knows someone who has dealt closely with abortion. 

I don't care who this offends, or who decides to glow a gasket because of what I'm about to write.

I think we need to stop focusing so much attention on abortion and whether its right or wrong. Whether is ethically, religiously or morally wrong. We need to focus more on Sex Education. 

Kids now a days are getting sex ed in elementary school. Think about that, elementary school. in elementary school my main focus was on beating Lauren and Taylor at Tetherball, doing a certain amount of flips on the monkey bars, passing my multiplication test so i could get a cherry on my ice cream sunday at the ice cream party(each number time table u passed on a timed test you got a piece of the ice cream sunday on the wall, at the end of a certain time period whatever was on your sunday was what u got at the ice cream party), not on sex. I thought boys were gross and mean. They were just kids i wanted to beat at football, and other sports. I used to kick them and beat them up for being so mean to girls. I had a crush once in elementary school, and to me a crush was just thinking he was nice and that i wanted him to be my friend and sit with me at lunch, be my partner on partner projects in class, play basketball with me, not to have sex with him or make babies.

Sex education should be more about the negative affects of sex than "its how babies are made" and the whole "if you have sex your going to hell". Show them pictures of different STD's. Show them the oozing graphic pictures of what their "junk" will look like. Tell them how painful some of the diseases can be. Emphasize that some of the things you get from having sex, you cant just wash off. Penicillin shots are painful(I got one when i was sick with an sinus infection and a virus and the other antibiotics i took for a week didn't make me better). Show them, hell scare them if that's what it takes. I know when i have kids I'm going to scare the crap out of them. I won't lie to them but i will scare them. "If you have sex you can get this STD and this STD and your junk will turn colors and hurt and look nasty". 

We need to focus on making birth control more available to girls. Obviously condoms aren't working. making them more available, i believe, wont do anything. condoms have been available in bathrooms, doctors offices and free clinics for so many years now and yet we are still having this problem. Sell birth control over the counter but require them to talk to the pharmacist so they know how to use it properly. Inform them that if they are taking it, and start taking antibiotics that they can get pregnant(oh don't believe that? well my mom took birth control and antibiotics...and now I'm here writing this, so its true). 

There also needs to be some blame on the parents. It's shouldn't be the schools responsibility to teach every child about sex, and what sex is, that's the parents job. School is a place for education, not sex ed. they are teachers not doctors. Kids are supposed to learn about their bodies and ask their parents questions, or their doctors, not their teachers. Most teachers when i was growing up, if they were asked a question like that they were told kindly that they should ask their parents. If they couldn't ask their parents they asked the school nurse or the health teacher. My health teacher in High School(required semester of health class) had a question box. it was passed around at the beginning of class and during class or at the end she would answer question, all asked anonymously. Some questions were about family problems, some asked for advice and a lot were sex questions or body questions. I still,to this day,feel its the parents responsibility to answer these questions for their kids.  Come on parents take a little responsibility(like you always tell us kids) and be the adult, talk to your kids!!

Not My Dirty Laundry

I can't be quiet about it anymore. If you are planning on getting married to someone, don't you think you guys should be together longer than a year before getting married? I understand older people who have been married before, who have been around the block and have some common sense and knowledge under their belt getting married within or after a year. I know a couple that did this. I though it was stupid when they decided it but i was supportive because it wasn't my place to bitch or throw a fit, but....I'm airing out the dirty laundry. I wont use names but I'm done keeping it all inside and pretending to be OK with it.

What is marriage anyway? A piece of paper? A ring u wear on a specific finger?

I'm not anti-marriage. I want to get married one day, but I don't want to rush into it.

According to the Forest Institute of Professional Psychology, 50% of first marriages, 67% of second marriages and 74% of third marriages end in divorce. Now remind me again why everyone is in such a rush to get married??

Marriage is not something to be played with.

Wilt thou have this Man to thy wedded husband, to live together after God's ordinance in the holy estate of Matrimony? Wilt thou love him, comfort him, honour, and keep him in sickness and in health; and, forsaking all others, keep thee only unto him, so long as ye both shall live?

When you say "I do" After being asked whats above its a vow. Its not just words u agree to. Once these are said and you get your marriage license that doesn't mean you can get pissed off at your spouse and just up and decide to leave. You don't grab your stuff and disappear for a week and come back saying your sorry. You don't leave and say you want a divorce 3, 4, or 5 times within a year and then cry that he didn't fight for you, or make a scene for you. You are the ignorant one who decided to leave. You suck it up and work it out, you suck it up and deal with it. "running is the only thing i know" is not an excuse, it's a cop-out.

The fact that you left the first time, or even the second time shows that you are not serious about the commitment or the relationship.You hurt not only your spouse but everyone involved, their family, your family etc.Then after giving the final "I'm done i want a divorce" come crawling back and forth between your husband and an ex. By doing that you give your spouse the right to divorce you because you were unfaithful.

Weeks go by and things start to go bad with your ex, what do you do? You crawl back into your spouses life causing a tragic and heart wrenching incident that puts your spouses entire family on edge. Not just the family in the state but those out of state as well. "I didn't cause it" BULLSHIT!! You were talking to him about what happened. All of the bad. Putting all of the blame on him instead of on yourself. Its not shock that his family didn't want you informed, or there by his side.

Why would you be by his side? "Because he is my husband". Now he is, after he ends up in danger and fighting for his life. Why wasn't he your husband when you were banging your ex? Why wasn't he your husband when the thought of leaving came to mind? Why wasn't he your husband when you lied to everyone about living with your family when you left? He wasn't. You were using him, playing with his emotions. He cared more than you will ever know and more than he will ever show and you threw that away.

I know she will be pissed that i wrote this, but like she said to me "I was honest". I'm being honest now when I say the only reason I am nice to you, still talk to you or even kept you informed was because of a promise i made, and because of my dad. I promised if you two split up we would still be friends and against my better judgement i stayed your friend. Even when the only reason you talked to me was to ask questions about him. The only reason i kept you informed was because my dad told me to.

I find out they are getting back together. "This time till death". Isn't that the same promise you made when you got married? We will see how long it lasts this time.

Anyone reading please think about your choices. Getting married is not just something between you and the other person. It affects everyone around you, kids, friends, and family.

Are You Stupid?

Literally talking about mugshots on HLN. "Is death row taking a toll on him?" Are you stupid? depending on the prison most inmates either bulk up, slim down and look the same in the face, maybe a little older but that's it!

In prison inmates get 3 meals a day, at least 1 hr a day out of their cells. They get full medical care, dental care, and contact with the outside world. Some get TV, books, can write to people outside of prison, phone calls etc etc. Are you kidding me?!?

So tell me again how Prison is a punishment? If we were going to punish them then give them nothing. i room with 4 walls and a toilet. Don't let them watch TV, listen to the radio. Limited/approved books, newspapers. Make them work every day till they die to pay for everything. The don't pay for the food they eat, the clothes on their backs, the guards, the medical staff etc. Who pays for all of that? Tax payers. If they die of starvation? So be it. If they get sick? So what? They are there for a reason. They were judged by a group of their peers and found guilty.  To put it lightly, fuck them. I feel no sympathy. I know people who have been to prison, i have friends who have been in prison since we were kids. I don't feel bad for them. They messed up, they made a choice to be a dumb ass and do the things they did.   So why are we all paying with our taxes. We pay all this money to feed them and make sure they get medical attention, what for? We are keeping the men and women who are on death row healthy and alive for what?!?! so that we can kill them in 10 years? that's 10 years worth of taxes we wouldn't have to pay.

Maybe i'm being hateful, or just plain ridiculous but i don't care. I think its ridiculous that we are paying to keep murderers and rapists alive. That we are keeping these sick twisted people alive so that one day if they get released that they can go out and "get a second chance". I dont think murderers and rapist should get second chances. I say once they are found guilty they should just go into another room, say goodbye to their families, and them get strapped down and get the lethal injection. there u go, one less fuck up in this world. one less person we have to keep alive.

I might have just rambled this entire thing but its what came to mind.