12/21/12

The worlds supposed to end! But i don't think so. I think everything will stay the same and nothing will change.

Does anyone know how many time the world has supposed to ended?
how many times its been predicted to end?
Hundreds!! Hundreds of times the world has supposed to ended, at least twice a year since we used B.C and A.D after the year.

Don't believe me? Google it! Look it up! Go to a library if you have to. (Libraries are those big buildings that are filled with books, magazines and newspapers in case you didn't know, but that's a topic for another day)

December 21st is just a day. Its going to be a regular Friday. People are still going to cut you off on the freeway. They are still going to go grocery shopping, go out to the clubs, go buy cigarettes and munchies.

The only things I think they will do different, at least here in Texas where i swear their idea of fun is drinking and watching their friends drink. Half of the people here will stock up on beer and liquor and prepare for the "End of the world". The other half will take their bibles with them everywhere they go and pray every hour or so and thank god for everything and anymore more than usual.

               There will still be:

• murders
• robberies
• pushy religious people
• governmental arguments and disagreements
• abusive parents
• starving and abandoned children here in the US not just in Africa and other countries
• problems in the Middle East
• Mentally ill persons in possession of guns and weapons
• Alcoholics and Drug addicts
• bad parenting and bad little children
• 5-10 yr olds with phones, i pods and way too much technology

Everyone just needs to calm down and stop worrying about how whether or not it will end. 

Was In A Bad Place Yesterday

I can feel myself slowly creeping into the dark hole full of anti social tendencies and demons attempting to convince my inner workings to give up and proceed without caution. Walking down the stairs backwards anticipating. The welcoming arms of the inescapable pain in which i am already a regular customer. screaming from the inside out wondering why there is always a storm cloud to hover over or around my sunny day. It seems to be the trickling affect of the crippling poison that is my relationship with everyone. there isn't one portion of this misrepresented life that i would want to share or wish upon anyone. i can feel the darkness becoming more and more unstable as each day passes, as each individually placed cluster fuck of a conversation is had. i don't want too lose the control i have over it, i have no idea how i will handle the reaction from those around me who don't know or don't understand. its not that they don't understand its they don't want to. they want to live in their cotton candy, plush surreal reality that they have created in their own unstable minds.

7 Double Doubles W/Cheese

7 Double Doubles W/Cheese

Height: 5'3"

Weight: 134 lbs

I type that and it looks odd to me. I remember weighing 120 lbs and that was on a bloated day. Today im comfortable in the 130-140 lbs range. Until I realized my boyfriends ex's are all skinny as fuck. I mean crack head skinny. skinny enough that when i saw pictures of them all i could think was that they needed to eat about 7 Double Doubles with cheese and extra french fries 2 times a day!

Now I'm not saying that I feel less adequate because his ex's are all skinny. I just have many questions that seem to roll through my head. 

1. How did he not split those girls down the middle while doing "the Horizontal Tango"?

2. Did he ever lose one of them because they turned sideways?

3. How the Hell did he go from these girls who looks like they are maybe 100 lbs soaking wet with a brick tied around their ankle, to me, a girl who isn't afraid to eat and is considered a "thick girl"?

4. Does he prefer girls that skinny?

All probably just over reactions but they do go through my head. When I see girls who are friends with him, but also friends with the ex i get weird about it. Its as if all crack head skinny girls all hang out together. what the hell would they talk about?? I can just picture it now:

Girl 1-Hey! Check out my rib. I can count 2 of them now!

Girl 2 - Oh thats nothing check this out!

Girl 3 - OMG! I can see 4 of yours!! Lucky!!

Girl 1 - What about you?

Girl 3 - Check it out!

Girl 2 - OMG i can see every bone in ur body!

Girl 3 - I know :D

Girl 1 & 2: Im so Jealous I wish i was that thin.

Not only are they Skinny as a stripper pole,from what i have seen and heard, they are all lying cheating bitches, who are into the "Swag" and "Yolo"... just UUGGHHHH the frustration i put myself through.