saddened at the thought

im saddened to think that the moment i shows signs of happiness there is always someone who pops in with some comment or lecture about why im wrong for being happy.

at this point in my life i consider myself an adult, ill be able to purchase alcohol in about a week and have been able to vote for a few years now,i work and go to school. yes i still live at home,but i am orking on moving out hopefully this year.

I dont like being talked to like im still in High School,its a literal insult. I dont like being talked to like im ignorant,innocent or just oblivious to everything around me,

If i am happy, all of the lectures and such are all things that just piss me off. I mean everyone has made choices to be happy that were not approved by everyone else. this isnt an office or chain of command that dictates whether or not i can be happy. I make choices as i see fit, for one simple reason: ITS MY LIFE.

i dont see why everyone including parents ever think that voicing disapproval and yelling lecturing etc will actually change anything. I made a choice and it wasnt even a drastic one, but its like heads roll because im happy and made a choice.

maybe one day they will get it that it doesnt make a difference. everyone makes choices that their parents or friends dont agree with but hat do they do? shut their mouths and deal with it because its not their life its someone else's life. when will people see that applies to me as well?

What the Hell happened?

what the hell happened to women having some respect for themselves??

what happened to modesty? Self respect? leaving things to mystery?

Literally a girl,i cant say woman, makes a video of herself lifting her shirt to reveal her push up bra with her breasts(boobs tits w/e you want to call them) mashed up to make them look bigger.

I have to call her a girl, not a woman. No self respecting WOMAN, would do some ignorant crap like that and then post it on the internet.

What happened to sun dresses? No, not slut dresses that barely cover your ass and have barely enough fabric to keep your breasts in check. I mean sun dresses. Tea length, knee length, floor length even. Did they vanish out of thin air when every girl or wannabe woman decided that dressing like a complete slut or hooker was cute? or sexy?

Of course there will be those women/girls who will say that I'm hatin, or that I'm jealous because I dont have a body like theirs.

Well you know what? *steps on soap box*

I have a body, it may not be Victoria's Secret great(which lets be honest i like double bacon cheeseburgers way too much to be that thin), I may not have ridiculous almost fake looking curves, but i have a body, and i like it the way it is, and what i like most is that not every person on the internet can see it.

I bet no woman/girl that will post videos like that or pictures practically showing all the goods have never heard the phrase:

Why buy the cow, if you get the milk for free?

I am literally ashamed to be apart of this generation. Throughout history many many women have done so much to get equal rights, and the right to vote. Now its that we want to be treated equal. Why is anyone going to want to be an equal with you?

Women get mad at the guys who stare at their chest, their ass, their bodies in public. My question is:
Did you even look in the mirror before you left the house? Do you not see your breasts trying to escape? Your ass eating your shorts? Your skirt "magically" trying to reach for the sky? You're wannabe stripper or hooker heels?

Chris Rock said it best:

Ok Ok You're not a whore, but you are wearing a whores uniform

Grow up! Put some clothes on! No man in his right mind is going to be with a woman like that and take her serious. You wonder why so many guys are shallow or pigs. You give them every reason to be.

I'm waiting for the day that women now a days,in my generation and younger go out and get some standards, and some self respect.(I wont hold my breath)

If you can't respect yourself, why the hell is anyone else going to?

*steps off soapbox*

 

5yr old terrorist

A 5 year old girl was suspended from kindergarten for telling a classmate she was going to shoot her with a toy gun. The Mount Carmel Area Elementary School suspended the girl for 10 days for making a "terroristic threat". the punishment was later reduced to 2 days suspension. The girls family has hired a lawyer and is fighting the suspension. The article then asks, in wake of the Sandy Hook shooting is the schools reaction appropriate or does the suspension  go to far?

The "gun" this little girl was "threatening" with is a plastic Hello Kitty gun that shoots bubbles. Thats right Bubbles. In my opinion the suspension is going to far. The girl is 5 years old and most likely doesnt even understand the concept of shooting someone to harm them. Most 5 year olds have trouble understanding death let alone harmful actions. 

At that age kids are still learning about all of that. They are learning about how their actions and feelings affect other people. Learning how to use their words and be kind with their words. 

I highly doubt the student she "threatened" was all broken up about it, crying to a teacher that this little girl threatened her with a gun, or was going to shoot her. In elementary school kids play game where they shoot each other all the time, no harm no foul. No one actually gets shot, or hurt or killed.

The school over reacted and blow things out of proportion. I could see them calling her parents and voicing their concerns in light of the Sandy Hook shooting and how her behavior or words were inappropriate. Sitting the girl down and talking to her about it. Not suspending her.

I threatened a girl in school once. I was in Junior High in California. I didn't even directly threaten this girl. I was in the locker room and stated that i wanted to shoot her (i didn't even say a name) in the face for every one of her freckles.(she had a lot of freckles). One of my friends who happened to be a mutual friend over heard me and asked who. I told her who. The next day i was called into the vice principles office and was suspended for a day,given 2 weeks detention,and i had to write the girl an apology. The girl who over heard me went home and told her mother what i said and she called the girls mother who then called the school and threw a fit. 

Thats at the age of 13 that i was suspended a day and given detention, and the written apology. This little girl is 5 and she was suspended longer than i was. 

Is this really what the world is coming to? that we are going to push kids who play shooting games? 

What next? Are we going to stop manufacturing gun toys? water guns? super soakers? paint ball guns? bubble guns? suction cup dart guns?

We all just need to calm down with the gun thing. The girl was 5. Give her a break.

National Anthem Gone Wrong

Our national anthem, its not a pop single, its not an American Idol/X Factor or any other shows audition. Its our National Anthem.

Why is it that 90% of the people who are famous or have a music career feel the need to make the anthem their own. Add a little flair and what not.

ITS NOT YOUR SONG! 

You're not supposed to add a little of your ow flair to it. Your not supposed t stretch out the notes and do a bobble of notes, or slide up and down the notes or add your little bit of character to it which honestly just sounds like whining.

There are exceptions  there is a way to add your own flair without taking away the whole song, there's a way to add a sprinkle of your flair to the anthem without it sounding like your auditioning, or recording your new single.

When someone sings the National Anthem(especially when its televised), it should be sung with passion and feeling but not take so far off the path that everyone is thinking "Oh my god, he/she murdered/butchered it". Our veterans shouldn't cringe hearing the anthem. 

My dad is a veteran, my family is a military family. We have a certain expectation of how our National Anthem should be done.

I'm sorry and the presidential inauguration  the only reason Beyonce sang was because she is black. Our president is black. Do you see the pattern?

If you sing the National Anthem correctly it causes chills, goosebumps, and a sudden rush of pride in your country. When its done right i can feel my heart in my chest, i get chills down my spine i get covered in goosebumps and i want to drape myself in an american flag running through the streets screaming at the top of my lungs that I'm proud to be an American.

In my opinion some of the best National Anthems ever done include:

May not be out anthem but its a national anthem done RIGHT!!!

Seriously Annoying

This is what i see as i scroll through my newsfeed on Facebook, and I'm annoyed to no extent. Am i supposed to be all bothered and concerned about that one American? Well, I don't care. I'm not bothered and I'm not surprised.

As an American i have to say that our leaders are fucking ignorant. Yes, i said it. I don't care about the dead American and I think our leaders are fuckin ignorant.

Over the last however many years we have heard and seen on the news all these different stories of Americans being killed, taken hostage, imprisoned and worse in all kinds of foreign countries. What no one ever makes clear, or states is that those countries HATE US.

They dont care is you are black, white, brown or purple with stripes. If you are an American then they hate you. Why do you think there are so many stories about it? They want us dead.

Every country we have been to in the last 10 years hates us. All the countries we are "helping", hate us. They don't want our help, if they did would they have attacked the embassy? Would they be killing or imprisoning tourists?

We,as a country need to stop focusing on "helping" these other countries that obviously don't want our help, and focus on helping ourselves!

Think about every problem our country is having. The economy,the 2nd amendment crap thats going on, the possible re-election of Obama, Obamacare, etc etc. Why are we not fixing our own problems first?

You cannot help those who cannot help themselves!
You cannot help those that do no want your help!

Ill step off my soap box now.

Bone To Pick

I have a definite bone to pick.  I am what you would call a movie junkie or addict. I love watching movies, talking about movies etc. However i would never want to be in a movie. I can and will admit i have no talent for acting, and I would not meet up to the "Hot Actress" standard.

Then I think, well in today's movie world, you don't even have to have talent to be in movies.

I don't think Megan Fox is a good actress. I think she is famous because she is an average actress who happens to be hot. Now a days i think that's all it takes. As long as the actress or "wannabe" is hot, and catches the eye of many male viewers then it doesn't matter if she is a horrible actress or if the movie is horrible.

Many men will defend that the movie is good, or "she is a great actress". Come on, really? really? The only reason anybody with a penis watched "Bring It On" or "I Love You Beth Cooper" was because of the actresses, not the movie itself or the story line, just the actresses.

I boldly stated above that I don't think Megan Fox is a good actress, and I stand by that. Why was she famous to begin with? She was in transformers, a supportive roll. She became popular because she was the "hot" chick from the movie. In my opinion she doesn't look unique or anything. Average chick.

Today there are many good looking actresses who suck at their jobs. I don't know if i could name 10 actresses under 25 who are gorgeous/hot and talented.

Can you?

I can name a few actresses who i think are gorgeous/hot and talented but none of them are under 25.

Not in specific order:

Kate Beckinsale
Hedy Lamarr
Nicole Kidman
Claudette Colbert
Charlize Theron
Barbara Stanwyck
Marisa Tomei
Maggie Q
Rachel Weisz
Lana Turner
Rachel McAdams
Salma Hayek
Bette Davis


Maybe I'm too critical but I don't think the actresses such as Megan Fox and many others who are hot and untalented deserve the recognition they get, or the fame and fortune they get. Maybe they should put some of that fortune to use, go to some acting classes or something.

Shitty

Last night I was in so much pain. My head hurt so bad it felt like someone was trying to mash a softball or 2 through my eye and forehead. My joints felt like they were trying to give up and just shatter as I tried to lay still and finish watching raw. I had shooting pains in my legs,sides,arms and neck. Even after the soever,aspirin and endorphine rush I was still in way too much pain. Then I stayed up later than planned discussing/arguing/talking.(not a big deal I enjoy talking to him before going to sleep). After knowing all that,knowing I was in pain,and didn't feel good,he has the nerve to become obtuse with me this morning.

I understand that I do usualy wake up when he does to make him coffee and smoke a cigarette with him before he goes to work. This morning I wasn't even sure If i was going to be able to get up for my morning trip to the restroom let alone make coffee.

I didn't talk Much this morning. I was struggling to wake up. It felt like an impossible battle to even keep my eyes open let alone talk or make coffee. I understand when people need coffee. It was a household rule growing up to not ask my mother for anything until she had had at least 2cups of coffee. But if its such a necessity don't you think you could have put your big boy or big girl pants on and made it yourself?

All I think to myself is "yess massta I bees a good ninja". Bad reference but I don't care right now. Its almost 7am and I'm laying in bed pissed off, hurt, and half way offended. Not only did I apparently do something wrong I received one of those sarcastic "Thanks for the coffee" before he left. Oh trust me, if I wasn't mad at you when you woke me up, after saying that shit,you can bet your ass that I'm mad now. I'm mad enough that the throbbing in my knee and pain in my hip bone,head,eyes, and ear are not the only things keeping me up this morning. I almost wanted to be a spiteful,hateful girlfriend and go make some coffee now that my ass is laying here mad upset and in pain. All because I didn't wake up when he wanted me up to make him some coffee.

Not even coffee that requires a coffee pot, filters or anything extravagant. That's right folks instant coffee. Heat up some water,add a little milk or creamer and sugar(I add sugar and nesquick chocolate) then add coffee crystals and stir. I make it kinda backwards I guess but he drinks it so it much be at least ordinarily good.

We shall see how this day turns out. Its already off to a shitty start. I hope it doesn't end the same way.