Shitty

Last night I was in so much pain. My head hurt so bad it felt like someone was trying to mash a softball or 2 through my eye and forehead. My joints felt like they were trying to give up and just shatter as I tried to lay still and finish watching raw. I had shooting pains in my legs,sides,arms and neck. Even after the soever,aspirin and endorphine rush I was still in way too much pain. Then I stayed up later than planned discussing/arguing/talking.(not a big deal I enjoy talking to him before going to sleep). After knowing all that,knowing I was in pain,and didn't feel good,he has the nerve to become obtuse with me this morning.

I understand that I do usualy wake up when he does to make him coffee and smoke a cigarette with him before he goes to work. This morning I wasn't even sure If i was going to be able to get up for my morning trip to the restroom let alone make coffee.

I didn't talk Much this morning. I was struggling to wake up. It felt like an impossible battle to even keep my eyes open let alone talk or make coffee. I understand when people need coffee. It was a household rule growing up to not ask my mother for anything until she had had at least 2cups of coffee. But if its such a necessity don't you think you could have put your big boy or big girl pants on and made it yourself?

All I think to myself is "yess massta I bees a good ninja". Bad reference but I don't care right now. Its almost 7am and I'm laying in bed pissed off, hurt, and half way offended. Not only did I apparently do something wrong I received one of those sarcastic "Thanks for the coffee" before he left. Oh trust me, if I wasn't mad at you when you woke me up, after saying that shit,you can bet your ass that I'm mad now. I'm mad enough that the throbbing in my knee and pain in my hip bone,head,eyes, and ear are not the only things keeping me up this morning. I almost wanted to be a spiteful,hateful girlfriend and go make some coffee now that my ass is laying here mad upset and in pain. All because I didn't wake up when he wanted me up to make him some coffee.

Not even coffee that requires a coffee pot, filters or anything extravagant. That's right folks instant coffee. Heat up some water,add a little milk or creamer and sugar(I add sugar and nesquick chocolate) then add coffee crystals and stir. I make it kinda backwards I guess but he drinks it so it much be at least ordinarily good.

We shall see how this day turns out. Its already off to a shitty start. I hope it doesn't end the same way.