Not to me, Not from me but it hurts me.

Finding things from someones past can mess with a person. Whether they found it on accident or on purpose, there are things that once they are found they rot your mind like a cancer. It's not to me, ot from me, but from someone i love to someone in their past. Its from awhile ago but the fact that it was there, still somewhere to be found scares me. I think of the past, but i dont have it lingering near me, or anywhere i can go and reminise. Its all the past. I shouldnt care, i should let it affect me. The amount of effort and words that were more begging than conversation bother me. I cant delete it, its not mine t delete. My only question now is, Why do they still have it? Do they go back and look at it? Why am i so worried about it?

MIRAME A LOS OJOS Y DIME Q VES
LAGRIMAS CAIDAS Y UNA BELLA MUJER
Q YA NO TIENE CORAZON POR QUE
YO SE LO ROBE Y LO ROMPI EN DOS
DEJANDO LE UNA HERIDA Q NUNCA SANO Y UN VACIO
LLENA DE DOLOR YA NO CREO EN EL AMOR
BUT LET ME TELL U ABOUT MI LIBRO DE AMOR
ONCE UPON A TIME I MET THIS GIRL THAT CHANGED MY WHOLE LIFE SHE BLIND FOLDED MY EYES WIT HER BEAUTY AND SMILE
SHE HAD FULL CONTROL OF MY MIND BODY AND HEART
COULDNT STAY ALIVE IF SHE WASNT BY MY SIDE
STUCK IN THIS PASSION FULL OF BLAZE
I WAS SO AMAZE THAT I HAD FALLEN SO DEEP IN LOVE
WIT A GURL I HAD BARELY MET
GOT HYPNOTIZE EVERYTIME SHE LOOKED INTO MY EYES
FELT THE ADRENALINE RUSH EVERYTIME OUR LIPS TOUCHED
SHE HAD ME SCREAMING 2 THA TOP OF MY LUNGS
WHEN OUR BODIES TOUCHED AND MADE LOVE
TELLING YOU GORDA TU Y YO ESTAREMOS UNIDOS POR VIDA
Y POR TI DARIA YO TODA MI VIDA Y QUIEN LO DIRIA
THAT THIS LOVE WILL HAVE A TRAGIC END
LIKE R0MEO N JULIET
LOVE AND GUNZ
BOTH CAN SAVE UR LIFE OR GET U KILLED
U REL0AD THA GUN WIT BULLETS
AND THA HEART WIT FULL OF EMOTIONS
AND A BR0KEN HEART IT COULD TEAR U APART
PULL DA TRIGGER AND IT CAN GET U KILL
BUT HERES WERE THA REAL PART OF THA STORY BEGINS
THINGS CHANGED WARM FEELINGS TURNED COLD
AND MY HEART FROZE 4RM AND OVERDOSE
OF DECEPTION AND THA GUY THAT PROMISE YOU THE WORLD
HAD OTHER PLANS I JUST WANTED TO GO
AND LEFT YOU ALL ALONE WITH NO ONE 2 HOLD
A MILLION THINGS WERE RUSHIN THRU MY HEAD
MEMORIES OF A LOVE THAT WAS REALLY MEANT 2 BE AND
MY PAIN WAS GETTIN WORSE AND IT HURT IT MORE AND MORE
IT FELT LIKE A MILLION KNIVES HAVE SHANKED
THRU MY BROKEN HEART AND LEFT ME FULL OF SCARS
MIND SO UNSTABLE I WASNT ABLE 2 STAND
I FELT SO WEAK I COULDNT SPEAK OR BREATH
SO I GRABBED THA GUN AND AIM IT 2 MY HEAD
AND SAID FUCK LOVE I RATHER BE DEAD
BUT BEFORE I COULD PULLED THA TRIGGER
MY WHOLE LIFE STARTED FLASHIN BEFORE MY EYES
AND I STARTED 2 CRY N FELL 2 MY KNEES
THREW LA PISTOLA ON THA FLOOR
AN D ALL THESE EVIL THOUGHTS TOOK CONTROL
OVER MY MIND AND SOUL AND CORAZON LIKE A CURSE AND
I FELT POSSESED NOW IM ON A MISSION TO GET YOU BACK
WHO SAID LOVE COULDNT KILL AND GIVE YOU THE CHILLS
CUZ THERE A THIN LINE BETWEEN LOVE AND HATE
AND I PASSED THA LINE WHEN I BROKE YOU HEART AND LEFT YOU ALL ALONE AND PLAYED WIT YOUR CORAZ0N
NOW IM TRYIN TO ACT ALL TOUGH LIKE I DONT GIVE A FUCK BUT LOVE IS PAIN AND THE TRUTH HURTS TO KNOW THAT I LOST YOU FOR GOOD
BUT THIS IS WHERE THE STORY GETS FULL OF SUSPENCE
AND THA DRAMA NEVER ENDS I GOT THIS PAIN IN MY CHEST I CANT EVEN REST
I COMMITED A CRIME WHEN I PLAYED TRICKS ON YOUR MIND
I KILLED YOU INSIDE WHEN I TOLD YOU ALL DOES LIES
THAT I WAS DOWN TO BE WIT YOU 4R LIFE
AND LEFT YOU ALL EMPTY INSIDE I TOOK ALL YOUR PRIDE
I REMEMBER THE DAY THAT I STOOD FACE 2 FACE WIT THE GIRL OF MY DRAMS
AND THE BITCH THAT TOOK YOU AWAY OH WAT A SHAME
EMOTIONS SO STRONG MY HEART WAS FULL OF HATE IM
TIRED OF PLAYING GAMES
BUT THA TABLES TURN NOW IM THE ONE THE ONE THAT I BE MISSIN AND WANNA BE KISSIN ASKIN YOU 4R MERCY
ME ON MY KNEES BEGGIN 4R A CHANCE AND FORGIVENESS
BUT I BETTA QUIT IT CUZ YOU AINT LISTENIN
2 MY BULLSHIT NO MORE YA NO TENGO CORAZON
TRATE DE BORRAR TU NOMBRE Y MEMORIA PERO FUE IMPOSSIBLE CUZ U LEFT A BRUISE THAT COULD NEVER BE CURED
YA NO QUIERO SABER NADA DE OTRO AMOR ESO SE ACABO
CUZ YOU YOU HAD ME LOCKED UP IN THESE WALLS BEHIND BARS
A PRISONER OF LOVE DOING TIME 4R A CRIME THAT I COMMITED
JANEL I REALLY DO LOVE YOU A AM SORRY FOR WHAT I DID YOU SAID IT YOURSELF IT HAS BEEN 1 YEAR THAT WE BROKE UP AND IM STILL HERE BEGGING AND CRYING FOR THAT LAST CHANCE TE AMO GORDA